CALISTA FAYE

FRIENDSHIP

2009-03-11T14:32:00.001-07:00

Dont even bother calling yourself a friend if you intend to destroy me. All just to make yourself look better? I dont mind losing the people who left because of your words. It just shows how much the friendship was worth. When i decide to be friends with someone, i trust them and really take them as a friend. I will never believe that a friend would harm me unless i was hurt myself. Even so, i believe in second chances. I dont need the little games people like you play. You want to say something? say it. make a point. if you dont even have one. just dont start. It only shows how silly and shallow you are.

di yi ci zui hou

2009-02-22T08:45:00.000-08:00

di yi ci ni qian zhe wo zhou le yi tiao jie

di yi ci ni wen le wo bing leng de chun

di yi ci wo xiang xing ai bu shi huang yan

di yi ci wo zheng zhen de gan jue..

zhen de bu shi ni shuo de na me jian dan

ye bu shi ni da ying guo de mei you bei pan

wo ying wei xiang xing ni

wo ying wei ai shang ni

dao zui hou wo zi ji shou le shang

wei he yao zhe yang

di yi ci ni shuo wo ai ni

di yi ci ni da ying wo yong yuan bu fen li

di yi ci wo kai shi xiang xing zhi ji

di yi ci wo jian chi yao ren xing

zhen de bu shi ni shou de na me jian dan

ye bu shi ni da ying guo de mei you bei pan

wo ying wei xiang xing ni

wo ying wei ai shang ni

dao zui hou wo zi ji shou le shang

wei he yao zhe yang (x2)

zhe yi ci ni qian zhe ta zhou guo wo shen pang

zhe yi ci ni wen de chun shi shu yu ta

zhe yi ci wo ying wei ai qing gan dao hai pa

zhe yi ci wo de yan lei, ni mei ban fa, cha gan
zhui hou yi ci, ting ni shuo ai ta

2009-02-21T23:44:00.000-08:00

baby. its written all about us. there was never another. how we didnt work out. tell me you didnt mean those words you said. tell me that i still matter. or did you really mean it?

張惠妹趁早

2009-02-16T17:07:00.000-08:00

LUCKY

2009-02-09T20:01:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND.

made me a fool

2009-02-09T19:34:00.000-08:00

i just wanted to fly
high up in the sky
and leave all of these behind

i dont want to cry
my tears have ran dry
never thought that i could fall

cause you

gave me the courage to love once more
only to be the one to destroy it all
gave me the faith to believe in love
only to stand there watching me fall
made me a fool

i just wanted to run
away from this place
every second here is pain

i dont want to hear
explantions are excuses to me
never knew how hard this could be

cause you

gave me the courage to love once more
only to be the one to destroy it all
gave me the faith to believe in love
only to stand there watching me fall
made me a fool

THE VERONICAS

2009-02-09T19:29:00.000-08:00

WHEN IT ALL FALLS APART

I'm having the day from hell

it was all going so well (before you came)

And you told me you needed space

With a kiss on the side my face (not again)

And not to mention (the tears I shed)

But I should have kicked your (ass instead)

I need intervention

Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

Everything is F'ed up

straight from the heart

Tell me what do you do

when it all falls apart

Gotta pick myself up

where do I start

'cause I can't turn to you

when it all falls apart

Don't know where I parked my car

Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)

I put my faith in you

What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)

And not to mention (I drank too much)

I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)

I need intervention

Attention to to stop temptation to scream

'cause baby

Can it be easier?

Can I just change my life?

'cause it just seems to go bad everytime

Will I be mending?

another one ending once again

Falls apart

Gotta pick myself up

'cause things are messed up

just dont say anything

2009-02-08T02:57:00.000-08:00

feeling so breathless
cant take this anymore
it all seems so senseless
i know im gonna fall

thought i had it all
one final call
im back where i started
who'd catch me when i fall

and i get so amazed at how i made it this far
when i awake i realise im back at the start

dont tell me that we'll be forever
or say that you'll never change
dont say im the only one that mattered
cause your words dont mean a thing
everytime, i believe
i end up, with wounds all over me
just dont say anything

feeling so senseless
cant think anymore
its all so meaningless
i know im gonna fall

thought i had it all
one final call
im back where i started
who'd catch me when i fall

and i get so amazed at how i made it this far
when i awake i realise im back at the start

dont tell me that we'll be forever
or say that you'll never change
dont say im the only one that mattered
cause your words dont mean a thing
everytime, i believe
i end up, with wounds all over me
just dont say anything

all of the lies you've said
all of the tears i've shed
all of the memories we shared
its hurting me
i cant breathe
i dont want anymore 'you and me's

ITS 2009

2009-01-24T10:29:00.000-08:00

omg. its 2009. hum. im still the same annoyingly bitchy prissy royal princess i was when i typed the first entry for 2008. right. im really bored. and i decided to visit already dead virtual diary. so. i really have nothing to rant about. so here. my goal for 2009 is to ensure an entry daily. and maybe start partying really hard again. its been so long. alrighty. some pictures from random folders i have before i take my leave. im really bored. god. OH OH OH!! im so in love with this song right now luh. "hot'n'cold" by Katy Perry. the mtv for that song is just oh-so-hot!! i know right? that wedding dress and the outifts. (i'd wear it for my wedding luh) *grin.

Katy Perry

Hot N Cold

You change your mind

Like a girl changes clothes

Yeah you, PMS

Like a bitch

I would know

And you always think

Always speak Crypticly
I should know

That you’re no good for me

Cause

you’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

You’re wrong when it’s right

It’s black and it’s white

We fight, we break up

We kiss, we make up
You, You don’t really want to stay, no

You, but you don’t really want to go-o

You’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

We used to be

Just like twins

So in sync

The same energy

Now’s a dead battery

Used to laugh bout nothing

Now your plain boring
I should know that you’re not gonna change

Cause

you’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

You’re wrong when it’s right

It’s black and it’s white

We fight, we break up

We kiss, we make up

You, You don’t really want to stay, no

You, but you don’t really want to go-o

You’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

Someone call the doctor

Got a case of a love bi-polar

Stuck on a roller coaster

Can’t get off this ride

You change your mind

Like a girl changes clothes

Cause

you’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

You’re wrong when it’s right

It’s black and it’s white

We fight, we break up

We kiss, we make up
you’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

You’re wrong when it’s right

It’s black and it’s white

We fight, we break up

We kiss, we make up

You

You don’t really want to stay, no

You

but you don’t really want to go-o

You’re hot then you’re cold

You’re yes then you’re no

You’re in and you’re out

You’re up and you’re down

(p.s im not that girl you think i am, im better)

IN SEARCH OF SANITY

2008-09-10T05:58:00.000-07:00

No. i have not died. In case any of you are wondering. Just have not been updating my blog as much due to time constrains. right. mj is like the hottest activity now. oh wells. im going in search of my lost sanity.

HAHA.

tata chicas

MESSED UP

2008-09-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

everything has been so sudden and messed up. words alone cannot describe how i feel.

is this really the end of the road

is there no way out at all

can i stop time at the moment we were sweetest

i dont want to fall

is this really the end of my smiles

is there no more rainbows ahead

can i ask you why we made such a big mistake

i dont want to regret

and i said

no, you cant break whats already broken

i wont allow you to do that

i'd not let my feelings show

so nobody would know

in the end

you, made a promise that you cant keep

said you'd never make me weep

but you did

you know you did

you destroyed whats left of me

can the hands of time turn back to where i first saw you

could we just pretend that there was never me and you

i fixed a broken heart and tore it apart

what did you do

oh what did you do

now everything is too brokened to be fixed..

heartbeats

2008-08-28T02:58:00.000-07:00

today i made a little wish
upon a dream i was dreaming
you held me in your arms so tightly
felt like i was your everything

yesterday is gone and today will pass
tomorrow's a brand new beginning
i really want that moment to last
before i fell asleep

boy
wont you say that you love me
make me stay by your side
i dont want our story to end tonight
just tell me you'll make it right
boy
dont leave me broken inside
promise you'll make it all alright
i still want to fall asleep against your heartbeats
i'll be sleepless tonight

today i said a little prayer
hoping you'd hear it too
i'll sing you to sleep one of these nights
and tell you, i love you

simple quote

2008-08-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

today's moment will be tomorrow's memory...

random

2008-08-19T12:38:00.000-07:00

hush now my baby
be still, love, dont cry
sleep as you're rocked by the stream

sleep and remember
this river lullaby
and i'll be with you when you dream

你是我的幸福吗?

2008-08-18T19:25:00.000-07:00

你是我的幸福吗?

im so tired but i cant seem to sleep. wth. so i was listening to this chinese song which i happened to love ages ago. its from some drama. okay. i made a mtv with myself in it. LOL.

this is entertaining myself. so if you dont like it. just dont watch it. HAHA.

WHAT A NIGHT

2008-08-18T02:36:00.001-07:00

very random rushed pictures..

this picture was really stupid, i looked like i was trying to pole dance and i couldnt find the pole..

righttt. the shot is misleading.. HAHA!!

MY XIAO LAOGONG AND I AGAIN!! lol.

(he was pretty high and still tried to copy my pose. wth)

ahbao.. i swear my fingers were not controlled by me!! (*crossfingers)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY(15thaug)

2008-08-15T19:39:00.000-07:00

lucky , yours truly , daniel (below)

the happppy three. (:

crazy party people. <3

over exposure. HAHA.

I LOVE ME!! <3

mmm..

i swear i was going to open my eyes!!

i look so young in this photo.. (LOL)

my BABE. (:

CAMWHORE!!

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. (: lovelove

okay. about my night. 9 BAR is totally like my second home now luh. im like always there. goodness. anyway, last night was totally crazy fun!! lucky and daniel came down and stayed till around 3 plus. elson and xiang came down tooooo. (: so much fun luh. and i look bloated!! gross. oh wells.

ONE DAY I'LL FLY AWAY

2008-08-14T19:39:00.000-07:00

I follow the night

Can't stand the light

When will I begin to live again

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

What more could your love do for me

When will love be through with me

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away

Fly fly away...

missing picture

2008-08-13T03:21:00.000-07:00

this is the group picture we took at th birthday party. the birthday cake was delicious. now im craving for cake. sigh

THE LOGIC OF LOVE

2008-08-10T17:24:00.000-07:00

Love, is like santa clause. Its a lie spun by people who needs something to believe in (or to make themselves feel happier). I stopped believing in it long ago. I once loved. I once believed in love whole heartedly and thought the world of it. Thus, i lost myself. my smiles turned into tears. my laughter into endless crying. alot of my friends would come to me and ask me about their love-life. it was easy peasy for me to tell them whats right and whats best. and i always said this to them,

when it concerns matters of your heart
use your heart
not your brains

and you'd never go wrong.

of course you have to bear in mind that there is a risk too. its not a satisfaction garanteed thing. you dont get a refund and you cant buy a insurance policy for it which means, you'd have to bear ALL the conseqences yourself (which sucks). and not forgetting that there isnt a guide book on how this damn thing operates.

one minute you are all lovey dovey and the next you feel like pulling strands of his armpit hair out while he's tied to the national flag post. one minute he's so into you and the next second he's picking up the hot babe sitting at the next table. one minute you felt like he means the world to you, and the next, whats his name again?

ironic isnt it?
everything is just so sudden and you cant seem to find an explanation for it.
yet everyone seems to be searching for that one explantion, one logic.

thus, i conclude, that

the logic of love is, there is NO logic

dont try to find it anymore.
with love comes hurt and pain.
with love there will be tears.

and females and are hopeful creatures. which totally kills. they carry that little light of hope in them that true love still exist somewhere.. it doesnt sweetheart. there isnt such a thing. true love? yeah. im sure. its true when the guy is screwing you and he sure as hell is loving it. HAHA.
alright. i think im done ranting. two post. i should really stop.

its 9am. wth. sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep calista sleep!!

NATIONAL DAY.

2008-08-10T16:20:00.000-07:00

HELLO WORLD.

This year. national day sorta went by like any other day. i mean. festivals and occasions are pretty much getting more and more mundane every year. i remember getting excited about national day when i was younger. like in primary school. i'd wear red. or white. wear star earrings and sing the songs along with everyone. things change. i changed. oh wells.

i spent national day at a friend's daughter's birthday party. 3 years old. she's such a sweetheart. too bad i dont have pictures of her cause i was too busy with other things at the party. i think they all did a group shot which is in someone else's camera. i'll try to get it and post it up soon. i do have pictures of the birthday girl's younger sister. (: HAHA. sooooooooo manja luh. damn cute. but very un-cute when she starts wailing. babies are so much fun when they are not yours. *grin. you play with them and leave the rest to their mothers. (like the crying and feeding and changing of their diapers..) eww. gross.

after the party. i headed down to boat quay for a drink. first stop was 9BAR. called patrick for a quick catch up and woah, the memories. devils bar till now. such a long long time too. and to think of the past sure did put a smile on my face. too bad the group's split up since devils closed. oh wells. things change. nothing lasts forever. isnt it?

right. picture time i guess.

patrick and me (he's totally coping my signature pose and failing VERY badly at it!!)

aye. this was very candid. i was running into the bar and turned just in time. HAHA!! yi shen yi si, zoe, me and him
dont we look like we're double dating? HAHA.
the real couple. (: i love her. years and counting.
i took this picture purely because i was horridly bored. and i think this photo makes me look so mysterious. (whatever) HAHA. just agree okay?

okay. i should end now. and i had hotcakes from mac. like about uhhh 2 hours ago. how crazy is that. i think im so fat i could die right now. ): *groans

im bleeding (no, not love). goodness. and its pretty bad. its like. i can feel the blood. and its hurting like crazy. preventing me from sleeping and i sem to hear noises. im thinking its just my imagination. im rambling. i cant stop typing. omg. weird.

somedays i feel so weak, i stand up and it feels like the whole room is spinning.

my head is killing me. the pain robs me of my sleep.

help. wont someone come and save me..

urgh.

BRAND NEW

2008-08-07T03:56:00.000-07:00

I am so in love with my new blog now. *drooooools

its like the most CHIO thing i've done up so far. haha. okay. anyway. i am no longer working at shin. so im free to do up my blog. and that also means that i've ALOT of time to sleep BUT guess what? ihavenotsleptindays!! wth. im too engrossed in doing up the layout and all. its all worth it anyway. (just loooooook at this!!) *tralalala

Oh!! and i have new pictures to post. i dont have my long hair in these photos. which is.. pretty nice actuallly. mummy was right luh. i can take short hair too. HAHA.

and so the camwhore in me takes over (btw, i bought a new camera. loves!!) ,

hum. on second thought. maybe i'll post them up later luh. im too lazy. haha.

and exams are coming. stress is taking over. sigh.

WARNING

2008-08-01T17:00:00.000-07:00

I HATE IDIOTS WHO JUST WALKS AWAY AND LEAVES A GIRL ALONE IN THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING WITHOUT A SINGLE FUCKING CAB. I AM SUPER PISSED OFF AT PEOPLE WHO DO THIS. WTF. NO EXCUSE. YOU SHOULD NEVER HAVE DONE THAT.

IM SO FUCKING PISSED IM SWEARING NON STOP. URGH!!

*screams and starts tearing

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

anyway. on a lighter note. some photos taken at zoe's pub. (: loves.

THE BESTFRIEND ENTRY

2008-07-28T05:05:00.000-07:00

this is the one guy i can never do without. and he has flown to some far away island for studies and it kills me because he is no longer a call or drive away. and no. he isnt my boyfriend. he is even more important to me than a boyfriend, you're looking at my bestfriend. (:

i have had my fair share (maybe a little too much more than a fair share) of friends that came into my life, and drifted away, and soon we only vividly remember names. some even left me, after creating a mess. but oh wells. they dont really matter much at the end of the day. because i've learnt that in life, people come, people go. there will only be that few who stays and sticks around no matter what. and even if you dont see each other every day. and call each other only once a year due to our very busy schedules, we still have that connection that nothing can ever break.

i can still remember how we first met and his impression of me was of a bimbo with a tinge of bitchiness. aand a little weird too. haha. and i thought he was a snobbish idiot. but hey. who would have thought that we'd end up being the support we both needed when we're falling. we were total strangers who thought nothing much of each other, and now i cant imagine not having him in my life. i remember watching a film that starred 'JET LI'. and that was our first movie. and sponge bob sqaure pants too. i was feeling pretty down due to some problems and he suggested watching spongebob square pants. i didnt stop smiling from that very moment. everytime i was upset, i'd think of the times we shared and i cant help but start smiling.

and who could ever forget the bike accident i had. haha. it was such a joke. my white outfit was painted red. and he recieved a call from a me who couldnt speak properly. half crying and half mumbling.

no words will ever be sufficient to describe how much this silly guy means to me.

i can only say, dear, you mean so much so much. (:

love love

THAT WAS ALL HIS LOVE

2008-07-26T00:03:00.000-07:00

You gave me so much

more than i could ever ask,

You walked through so much

more with me and said that we'd last,

You took my hand

and promised to never let go,

You said i was your life

and if i'd leave you'd die,

Thanks for the love.

I'll never forget the times we laughed, the times we cried. And its my turn to make a promise that i'll be here no matter what the future holds for us. I'll never regret any moment.

my love will get you home

2008-07-25T03:02:00.000-07:00

If you wander off too far,

my love will get you home.

If you follow the wrong star,

my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself,

lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me,

my love will get you home.

Boy,

my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes,

my love will get you home.

If your troubles break your stride,

my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself,

lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me,

my love will get you home.

Boy,

my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed,

my love will get you home.

When there's only you to blame,

my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself,

lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me,

my love will get you home.

Boy,

my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself,

lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me,

my love will get you home.

Boy,

my love will get you home,

Boy,

my love will get you home.

NIGHT OUT AFTER WORK 2

2008-07-13T09:39:00.001-07:00

more photos from friday night. i look so fat. oh my. ): haha. anyway. some of the shots were candid. like the one where i seem like a was grinning at the floor for whatever reason there is. HAHA. i think i kiss so many girls, guys should be jealous of me. oh how i love being me. (:

NIGHT OUT AFTER WORK

2008-07-13T02:06:00.000-07:00

went to dragonfly with my beloved girl after work on friday night. was pretty fun and i kind of found the mood to party all over again. there was chantel who came along too. think she got a little bored. oh oh. and i bumped into ah gong!! haha. its been so long luh. i think they moved to dragonfly since devils closed down. sigh. i miss those days.

oh wells. anyway. had fun. guowei was there. and he got a littttle bit drunk. steven the idiot was there too. and and guowei's friend. so smiley. always smiling. haha.

im torn in between hearts. such is the irony of love.

makes me smile

2008-07-07T21:29:00.000-07:00

and thats it. its just her and me. (:

gone with the pain

2008-07-07T20:51:00.000-07:00

I think having conversations in the wee hours are currently my favourite thing to do. seemingly since i cant get to sleep when the moon appears. LOL.

anyway. was on the phone with L again and we were just talking about some very random relationship based issues. and in the midst of our conversation, again, (i know right? haha) i had this brilllllliant thought in my mind. (at least i thinkits a brilliant thought luh.)

since people tend to get hurt in relationships and be left with scars which might affect their next relationship, I (theverybrilliantwondergenius), decided that i'll someday, invent a device that'll be able to erase memories that a person wants to forget.

i'll erase only the painful parts in the relationships and leave all the happy ones in your mind. than you'll just live life thinking your life is such a happy one and everyone is simply just so nice and lovely. (isnt this beautiful) but obviously, it'll be very weird when you cant figure out why did ALL your past relationships not work out since it was all happy and wonderul. hum. oh wells. i could always invent a beautiful less painful reason behind your failed relationships. like, your boyfriend/girlfriend decided that both of you just make really close friends. (is that less hurting?) mmm.. plenty of time for me to come up with many many brillliant reasons anyway.

my throat is still killing me. seriously. i need a break from the world. hectic. im amused im still alive. sigh.

tell me im brilliant. i know i am. haha. L is stupid. totally living in self denial. LOL. (are you going to kill me?) gah.

FUNNY CONVERSATION

2008-07-03T19:54:00.000-07:00

so one morning i couldnt get to sleep. and my stomach was craving for hotcakes. since i was too lazy to order mac over the phone, and i couldnt get to sleep either, the only logical thing to do was to call a friend. (i know.. i dont make any sense)

poor friend of mine (lets call him, L. *grin) had to pick up my call early in the morning and listen to me torture him endlessly on the other end of the phone. in the midst of our very interesting conversation, i was repeating 'im hungry' every five seconds to a minute. and so L suggested i call for a mac delivery.

L: call mac luh

Me: lazy (i know, im hopeless)

L: you dont have any other choice, im hungry too...

Me: thats your problem. omg. i think im a genius (imagine a lighted bulb next to my face)

L: what what??

Me: i think mac should invent this hunger panic button in everybody's house. so when i get hungry, all i have to do is press that button and tadah!! a screen would appear out of no where and i can place my order. (grinning very happily while talking about this)

L: you think mac very rich ah? stupid girl

Me: hum. but its a gooooooood idea right right? (getting very VERY excited)

L: *silence (prolly thinking what an idiot i am)

Me: (still very excited) and i think they should start serving real food, like rice and noodles, the filling sort you know?

L: and?

Me: omg omg!! they can call their fried rice.. MAC CHOW FAN!!

both: (BURST OUT LAUGHING) wth wth.. hahahahahahaha.

and thus i conclude, that IM such a genius and L is a silly boy. HAHA. kidding. but hey, one is allowed to dream at times. sigh. (:

im all pink.

2008-07-03T18:02:00.000-07:00

just some old photos i never got to post. since im always either too lazy to do so or too sick to move around too much.

thats him who stood by me through so much.

he who was always there.

he who saw whats true.

he who knows whats true.

he who told me what was not worth it.

he who told me to love myself.

SICK

2008-07-01T18:17:00.000-07:00

i've been ill for the past few weeks. its crazy. i would have fever all of a sudden. and it ALWAYS happens in he middle of the night. uncool. sigh. obviously due to the fever and throat infection (and other minor whatnots), i dont sleep very well. sigh. and due to that, i think im falling even more ill than i can ever imagine. talk about the germ attack.

on a side note, i want to play mj soooooooooooooo bad. ppffftt. i hate being sick.

cant seem to get to sleep. no idea why.

life is getting so boring. nothing new ever happens. oh i simply must add this, for the !@$#%$# million time, WHY DO YOU GIRLS ALWAYS LOVE TELLING HALF TRUTHS?!!

recently, (*ahem) a former girlfriend of mine called me regarding some matters. which i overlooked for a VERY VERY VERY long time luh. (okay. so i admit im at fault)
but its not like i did it on purpose. i had a damn good reason. plus, i was ill so often i cant remember a healthy day. till NOW..

anyway, she called me and i didnt pick up cause i was sleeping (due to the medication i took) earlier on. and her boyfriend spoke to me as if i owe her my life. i was obviously not very happy. but at least she called back to apologise. i guess people tend to forget the times when they needed help and who the fucking hell was there for them. seriously. dont make it sound like you are the one that was being nice. the ONLY one that was being nice. cause, my dear girl, you know you are not. like i've always said, we only know in our hearts who's really real. i hope you have not turned into one of those fake plastic models i see everywhere. always so superficial. i would be so disappointed. sigh.

oh wells. on a happier note, my bao bei emily is coming back to sg. cant wait. LOVES!!

UNKNOWN LOSER

2008-06-16T03:57:00.000-07:00

I was browsing the net and guess what? i came across a blogsite that was started by a childish little lifeless insecure insane thing (my personal guess).

www.ultimatehaters.blogspot.com

whoever owns this blog, really needs to do some self reflecting. do you derive joy from dissing all this girls. does their lives concern you? do you REALLY know them so well? the real loser in the end, is you. you dont realise that do you? what is this whole condemming sluts and bitches thing? what meaningful action have you taken to make this world a better place? are you just sour and bitter about your own life? they may not be perfect and they migt not lead perfect lives but you really need to know that at least they HAVE a life. if you really dislike them, you could always say it to their faces. not start a silly hate-blog about them. all those girls written in that site are from outram secondary school. you are prolly from that school too isnt it?

you can write whatever you want about all this girls but people like me who may accidentally read it, would not only think you're a very pitiful person who is simply just extremely bitter and sour about his/her own life. thus, derives that little short-lived happiness from dissing other people. think about it. (:

me to you.

2008-06-12T18:39:00.001-07:00

OCEAN SIZE LOVE
LEIGH NASH

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between needs a retention

I see you right in front of me as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry anymore
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection

I see it right in front of me
A vision in my head
And I know this is as real as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

You make no sound but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends
Like the sea
Like you for me

And it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

PHOTO TIME.

2008-06-12T17:14:00.000-07:00

WARNING!! CONTAINS ENDLESS BIMBOTIC-NESS!!

i reallllllly LOVE this photo (above). though the quality is just eeewwwwwww BUT but, i loooook so un-me. LOL. totally awesome. gah.

im such a cam-whore. wait till i get my camera.

my old one decided to die on me. argh.

i hate being camera-less.

anyway. pictures of my latest nails. which im changing within the next two weeks. hum. and pictures of babes that i work with. (: not all but a few. will try to get pictures of all the hot hot babes. *GRIN

this is JENNY. my manager.

jenny, nicole, me with kelly at the top. (:

nicole took this and i think she's good with the camera. HAHA. at least she didnt cut away any of our faces. and thats tough with my handphone and its lousy camera. LOL. oh wells.

i love her best at work. (: *grin.

we're both a little crazy. falalala.

this is JOJOJOJO.

okay. enough. OH OH. and i would like to thank my dearest brother edmund. poor him suffered when i fell ill. haha. but i really appreciate everything you've done for me. (: i mean. i called him at 4 in the morning and had him rush me to A&E. Due to my VERY high fever. (40 is pretty dangerous to me) so he didnt get any sleep. but SEEEEEE. thats why i love you so right? plus im the troublesome little sister you never had!! LOL. but im so nice too (aye. im nice okay) haha.

URGE TO KISS

2008-05-21T12:32:00.000-07:00

i've learnt my lesson. never again will i drink a drop of alcohol without filling up my stomach. its like pouring acid into a shot glass and downing that in a moment of stupidity. work is getting tiring. but there are the nice people there who make things a tad better. prolly the reason why im still working there. alright. nothing interesting lately. i have this sudden urge to study. like. really study. sit down with my books and spend some quality time with them (have not done so in awhile). yet im always too lazy to turn my brain on. the irony.

i am too lazy to unpack my stuff. PLUS i forgot my telly control. now. i have no telly to watch. tell me about it. (i desperately neeeeed my telly) damn!!

on a side note. i realised a very very common trait in drunk males. they tend to have this urge to want to kiss any girl they see. in general.

male = perverted mindless little thing thinks about sex every 2 hours
drunk male = horny perverted brainless creature that has strong urge to kiss random strangers

seriously. you guys should keep your horny lips to yourselves when you're drunk. and not go around randomly kissing any mary jane or lizzy you happen to walk by (or in some cases, stumble). i think im so brilliant. oh yes. (:

im putting on weight. which is. GROSSLY unsexy. eeeewwww. I need to lose the weight, and fast. before my clothes are unwearable. ): oh my.

THOUGHTS

2008-05-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

was i supposed to know

what should i have known

this game it seems we're all playing

the rules this game holds

you dont ever use a punctuation

leaving words unsaid

the said untrue

its not about romantic "i love you"s

or asking for my hand in marriage

just something really simple

dont you get it now

it seems like we think differently

total opposites

both could have been testing waters

cold and uninviting

it has seemed

we now stand at a crossroad

turn in different ways

maybe just maybe

we'll meet again someday

till then dont forget my lips

or how i looked tonight

how you held on to my hands

how we felt so right

PICTURES THAT PAINT A THOUSAND WORDS

2008-05-20T01:01:00.001-07:00

There isnt anything worth me blogging about at the moment. Or at least i dont see a need to do so right now. hum. oh wells. some photos to share. (:

RANDOMOUS

2008-05-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

Im bored. Its 8.30 in the morning and im STILL up. Blog away i shall. HAHA. oh and a little joke to share. was having a conversation with a certain someone on friday night (infact, saturday morning).

ME: were you hurt by someone you loved alot in the past?

GUY: yes i was..

ME: what did she do? (random thoughts going through my mind)

GUY: she didnt tell me the right hole to poke. (completely straight faced)

ME: (burst out laughing) OMG OMG OMG. fuck.

end.

he answered me almost without having to think. i just cant help but blog about it. anyway. work is starting to get boring. sigh. people are getting un-interesting. on the other hand. there are some pretty interesting people too. okay. im starting to contradict myself. bite me. (figure of speach)

imagine if love was a game that came packaged in a box sold at shopping malls.

LATEST GAME: 'the game of love'

play or be played, thats the game. choose your character and start the dice rolling. get through all the stages in this game to unlock the mystery behind this 'sacred' word.

IM SO TIRED BUT I CANT SLEEP. this is killing me. and i have to work tonight. urgh. alright. enough of my rants. im gonna keep my ds company now. (:

LETS PLAY A GAME?

2008-05-07T14:03:00.001-07:00

i've started working again. dont ask why. singapore is getting VERY VERY expensive. (i do admit im a shopaholic to a certain extend) anyway. im currently working at this place thats pretty interesting. (okay. so alot of places infested with humans are bound to be a little interesting)

since i've written on cheesy pick up lines in a previous post, this one is close. so i was working as per normal. (it was my second day at work) and i was running about doing what im paid for. duh. i serve drinks. yes. im a waitress. *GRIN. HAHA. okay. and there was this guy. introduced to me by a fellow babe during my virgin day at work. (for all those idiots out there who dont understand what i meant by 'virgin day'. it means FIRST day at work. nothing sexual.) he amused me.

this is how the converstion went:

GUY: lets play game (with his fellow buddies grinning and crowding around)

ME: uhh.. okay. (all smiles and polite)

GUY: (hesitates a little) its called fill in the numbers

ME: oh. (still very clueless) okay. sure. what numbers? how?

GUY: (gives me the "omg. she's an idiot" look) you fill in your handphone numbers.

ME: what?! my numbers? (still half an idiot and in shock) oh...okay.

GUY: (watches me 'play' the game, which i did *grin) now its my turn..

ME: okay okay (very very very amused and out of shock)

GUY: i'll use my phone and give you call. (proceeds to do so)

ME: OHHHHHHHHH. (finally getting the rules of the game)

END

now. cheesy pick up lines are so not interesting anymore. infact, this game will prolly get you the number that you want. (: i think this guy is close to being brilliant. he is only close to being brilliant because at the end of the night. he was giving his contact to another waitress. well. points are obviously deducted. he was a 7 before and 4 after. *GRIN. that was my little tip. have fun guys.

two cents worth

2008-04-30T10:53:00.000-07:00

Have not blogged in awhile. Been so busy with the packing and all. Oh wells. Anyway. With regards to the emails i recieved from some of you asking about Naomi, im not replying any of it because i know nothing about the matter. If you guys really want to know the answers, ask her. I do know her personally but i am not in any position to disclose any information about her or any of the other girls involved.

NAOMI.
I just want to say that i can understand what you are going through right now. But i hope you understand that i've known elaine for a very very long time and i know her enough to tell you that she is definitely not a mindless girl. I believe she has nothing to do with the rumours and flamming that has been happening currently. I've met her family and im sure she's not a malaysian. She really is half hk. She definately does not have any reason to hate you. Her dislike (if any) for you may be caused by her protective instincts. I wont force you to continue being friends with me since you feel uncomfortable that im friends with elaine and huirong too. But like i've said, im not a person who follows blindly. Even if 100 people out of 100 people tells me something about someone, i'd still rather trust my own judgement. I give you the same deal. (: Everyone has a past that would be a shadow in their future.

END.

Anyway. I've been pretty unwell the past few weeks. Its like the bugs are all visiting me at the same time. I've stopped partying for such a long long time. I think i've forgotten how to party. HAHA. so much has been happening around me. i had so much to blog about yet as im typing right now, i cant think of what i should blog about now. *annoyed. Dropped by velvet last night to join aston for a short drink. Been awhile since i went out for a drink. oh wells. Had a little fun playing bluff with dice and making fun of aston's friend. (: pretty nice guy actually. all smiley and always going for a smoke. HAHA. right. im going to get some food. FOOD FOOD FOOD. (: loves. tata chicas.

2008-04-03T12:32:00.000-07:00

Pick up lines are just so 'loserish'. Its pardonable if you're 1.8m in height, have at least six solid different island on your tummy area topped with a killer smile. Dont even try to pull off a pick up line if you have none of the above. Its like having dog poop in your mouth because you mistook it for chocolate. 'gross'

Examples of pick up lines:

"Hi, do i know you?" ---> no, i dont. never wanted to. hope i never have to.

"You seem familiar, have we met?" ---> do i? you dont.

"do you want a ride in my new honda?" ---> (stares in amazement at how loserish this guy can get) its okay. my friend's picking me up in his mini cooper S.

"its so hot in here, turn off the heat" ---> do i look like a heater on legs? or did you just drink over your limit.

Those are just a few. How unbelievable. If you think you're being all smooth and cool, smack yourself right now. If you want to have a drink with us, it only takes a great smile, great body, height and a simple line, "can i get you a lychee martini?" (: sigh.

FEMALES

2008-03-26T14:31:00.000-07:00

Imagine this. Butt-like shaped protected with a skull so hard and throw in a bunch of hair. That darling, is the EXTREMELY complicated brain of a female. As pretty and tiny and almost harmless as they may seem, please dont be fooled because females are definately NOT (i repeat, NOT) harmless.

Weilding swords and punching someone else's nose may not be their forte, but their minds work faster than a bullet at full speed. What makes a female?

Hypocrisy + Heart (thats full of themselves) + Brain (thats so complicated i bet they dont even know what their thoughts are) + Love (material things and themselves) = females

Look at that pretty lady. All the pink fluff and fur. Hidden within all that, is everything thats shiny and sharp. They would eliminate those they disliked (for whatever reasons) without hesitation. They would bare their claws on other innocent females. If you are weaker, you'd be eliminated almost immediately. You'd vapourise so fast you prolly not even know how the hell condensation took place. If you seem like a threat to them, they would try their best to send you far far far far away (if jupiter was an option..you might just end up there).

There is a minor fraction of these females, that are females, but of a different equation.

Real (to others as well as themselves) + Heart (that isnt full of themselves) + Brain (that works just as fast just not as evil) + Love (for whatever they deem fit) = 'humane females'

Which equation are you?

TO A CERTAIN SOMEONE :

You may write ALL you want on your blog, since its yours. Make up things and put words into my mouth, im not going to bother defending myself or denying/correcting anything you have written. Because it dont make a difference. I dont need people like that in my life. ever. so jolly well get this, you want to eliminate me, try harder. (:

i loathe mindless games you guys play. but hey, i cant blame you for being jealous can i? *GRIN

TRUE OR FALSE, COME and GOES

2008-03-17T07:10:00.000-07:00

Its funny how the word friendship became something im so skeptical of now. i mean. one moment you guys are like siemmese twins joined at the hips, next, either one would be plotting some evil plan on how to ruin the other's life. Are those around you really friends? i used to think friendships are so simple. all you need is trust. why be friends if you cant even trust that person?

i never quite understood why my mum gets @#$^!$# angry with me everytime i tell her, im helping a friend. but i THINK i do now. you help, you get into dip shit, they leave you. (: thats for helping. some may leave and come back. some may never turn back.

it has happened to me a milllion times. and as mr.right may put it, THE PERSON CLOSEST to you, will be that one person who betrays you. (this does not include blood relations.) and i think he makes sense. for once. HAHA. (normally he doesnt) anyway. yup. back to the topic. i have come to terms that friends come and go. true friends stay. i for one, would never stop being friends with a person just because i heard rumours about him/her. even it the rumours were about him/her bitching about me. (: i'd trust my friend. and till i hear it with my own ears, i wont stop being a friend. thats for sure.

im not about to explain alot or mention any names in this entry. because i dont see a need to. but at the end of the day, the truth is clearest to us. and no one else would know better what really happened.

i always liked what my grandfather told me,

its always different when you watch a flower grow from hearing how it grew.

its so so so true. how much details are left out when someone tells you how a flower grows? (:

been sick anyway. and hey. i had friends who left and came back because they realised who was true. really really true. im always here. i'll never move. not for anything.

lovers to friends

2008-03-11T05:40:00.000-07:00

LOVERS TO FRIENDS

never could i've guess that this was the end
all of our friends said that wounds would mend

BUT
baby cant you see
there's nothing left here that belongs to you and me
AND I
hope you'll understand
that im just doing whats best
and that would mean... the end.

walking down the street, we're no longer holding hands
paint a perfect picture when we're with our family and friends

BUT
baby, you and i both know
thats all pretence, only for show
AND I
hope you'll understand
that its best for us to go back from being lovers to friends..
(lovers to friends..)

we cant carry on this way
cause there isnt anything for us left here
the footprints we made may fade to be unclear
dont, dont shed another tear

PS. I LOVE YOU

2008-03-09T01:35:00.000-08:00

if you have not caught this movie, TELL YOURSELF YOU ARE A MORON. than go get tickets and watch it. (:
really. its worth more than $7.50 *GRIN

in short. i had the best friday night ever. (: dinner, movie, a short (hum. it was supposed to be for a short while..*grin) drink. it was the company i had. (:

FOREVER by Leon Jay Williams.

2008-03-09T01:23:00.000-08:00

i went to imeem. and GUESS what i found. Beautiful song. listen with your hearts (:

2008-03-01T05:40:00.000-08:00

There are really (and i mean REALLLY) weird people around me recently. I think i had the worst FEBUARY of my entire @#!$^^%#@!# life. no kidding.

First. I have a PSHYCOTIC CREATURE trying VERY VERY ( it's really not good enough sweetheart ) hard, cracking her head, activating ALL remaining braincells, here ALL for the sake of attempting to insult me. REALLY. Im so puzzled as to why is she still occupying space on our planet.

There are SOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i can think of to insult a person. OH OH!! I can even think of things to insult myself with. Like, you could say i look like a tranny. ( There are mornings where by i look into the mirror and, GASP!! eeee. i look sooooooo trannish. ) omg. *HAHA. uhhhhhh.. or you could always say i look like a panda that got punched in both eyes. LOL. i have very bad eye bags. ( thanks to ALLLLLL the late nights i've been having since god knows when ) IF you reallllly cant think of anything else that you can diss me for, you could always make fun of my prissy-ness. *GRINN (:

Of ALLLLLL things, that pshycotic creature has to pick on my teeth. YES. teeth. AND AND AND, this was how the insult ( i think it was meant to be hurtful to me luh ) went..

' Faye's teeth = shermaine x 5 '

* please refer to the following :

shermaine
02/28/2008 4:14 pm

From: Fucking CALISTA monkey FAYE

" HELLO UGLY GROSS FAT THING. (:

1) Please do check out your reflection in the mirror. i doubt the mirror can withstand such a terribly ugly creature.

2) cant your friend's braincells function properly? its pretty easy to spell my name correctly since its on my friendster.

3) whats with the tragic english both of you are using to insult me. i think i have already made myself VERY clear that if you intend to in anyway insult me, PLEASE have the guts to do so in my face. BUT before that also take an hour or so to construct a proper english sentence. It really beats the very hilariously pathetic command of language both you and your friend have.

by the way. YOU = faye x 2
GROSS. " <------------ typed by me

anyway. HER TEETH = shermaine's x5 <----------- typed by creature
(:

WTH. i mean. she just copied and pasted what i typed and added a few of her own words. omg. and of all things, telling me she has only 12 and 1/8 of a tooth left. seriously. THAT i've got see. *GRIN

oh my oh my. sigh. how sad isnt it. when i've got a set of teeth thats close to perfect. im pretty sure the tooth fairy is just busy, she'll remember to get back to you pretty soon. (:

randomrandomus

2008-02-27T22:33:00.000-08:00

i'll always remember the good times we shared

the way you held my hand in yours
made me laugh when i got bored
held me tight through funfair rides
your kisses in the mornings and nights

i'd try to erase the times we fought
we'd yell and scream about different dreams
those tears i've shed that you didnt wipe
i'll be alone all through those nights
i'll forget all those little fights

you once promised to hold my hand
care for me till my heart has mend
sing me songs. love letters penned
now, its time for dreams to end

MDIS

2008-02-26T22:36:00.000-08:00

DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT, enroll yourself into this private institution. If you are considering private institutions for your education, dont even bother with MDIS.

MDIS have proven themselves to be just another one of those private institutions which does not have a proper management system. They'd inform you that your class has been cancelled ONE HOUR before class begins. If you think thats just a minor little problem, wait till you hear this.

On the 25th of FEBUARY 2008, MDIS mass smsed their students informing them that class begins at 9am, later in the morning. THIS MSG WAS SENT TO THE STUDENTS at 2.45am. yes. your eyes are fine. you saw the time correctly. The management gave no explanation as to why that happened and merely brushed the matter aside. ' we have alot of work to do.. ' was their BEST excuse. (and it isn't even valid)

Apart from the messed up system. MDIS apparently gives FALSE informations to parents of various students. Claiming that a parent of a student, has made a complain against another student for the negative influence. This has happened to a number of different students studying there currently. When confronted, the MDIS management, DENIED promptly.

What values can MDIS teach their students if the school itself seem to have ZERO values?

MDIS has proven to be a total disappointment.

A NEED TO PUKE

2008-02-26T22:29:00.000-08:00

CLICK IF YOU HAVE A NEED TO TRIGGER YOUR GAG REFLEX

This is that " creature " i was blogging about in my previous post.
YES. The FAT, UGLY, GROSS thing. *GRIN

THE GROSS AND THE UGLY

2008-02-23T19:45:00.000-08:00

I am known to have a very VERY VERY good temper. i dont flare up easily. (unless of course you happened to be some guy who's dating me) i am normally. cool about most things. BUT i must say that this gross and ugly thing seriously pissed me off last night.

NOTE TO DONOVAN :

- im so sorry cause it was your birthday after all. and i really should have kept my cool. but if you look at it my way. i hope you'd understand how pissed i was. whichever the case, sorry your party ended this way. ):

NOTE TO GROSSSSS FATTT THINGG :

- you are so fucking lucky your father apologised for you over the phone. in future. PLEASE dont try to pick a fight with someone you know nuts about. its stupid. really. im pretty sure you another one of those sad creatures god realllly hated. thats the reason why he didnt give you any brains nor beauty. but dont be too hard on yourself. at least you have a dad who'd clean up your shit. HA! to think i was being nice. pulling a freaking stool for you to sit cause you were squatting by the table. AND you claimed i fucking threw a chair at you. seriously. PLEASE use whatever remnants of your disfunctional braincells to differenciate kindness and being a bitch. if i wanted to be a bitch about it. you would have been squatting at the foot of that table like a pathetic little rat. so get your facts right before pointing your fat ugly yucky UNPOLISHED fingers at me. i do have a limit. and you definately crossed it. btw, i REALLY REALLY have better things to look at. my eyes would be blinded if i stole a second glance at you willingly. OMG. you are like. TWO of me. not hot, at all. gross. take a minute to ponder..

NOTE TO SELF :

- ALL guys are lying when they claim to love you very much. NEVER trust another guy EVER unless i want to have my heart brokened. (: *must remember

NOTE TO ESTHER :

- thanks for coming down though it was so random and in the wee hours of the morning. (: and always helping me when people like that try to pick a fight out of nothing at all.

NOTE TO THOSE WHOEVERS WHO HATE ME :

- i dont NEED you to love me. really. i love myself. ALOT. so there's really no need for you to force yourself to like me if you reallllly think im a bitch. BUT. at the very least. have some guts to hate me in my face. i dont need fake smiles. dont hide your hatred. cause i wont bother hiding mine. GOT IT? goooooood. but before confronting me. i'll have to state down a few basic rules..

* please do think hard what about me do you not like and what is it you want to pick on me about. DONT come rambling incoherently to me in tragic english. that. i'd just laugh it off and think you have a microscopic brain. seriously. i mean it. i'd laugh in your face. so unless you want to kick yourself in the face. DONT confront me unprepared. im not to mess with when i hit my limit.

last but not least. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONOVAN. (:

MOLLY SMILES

2008-02-22T01:17:00.000-08:00

Daddy's little girl
paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy's little child
breathes new life to the morning time for me
Though we're apart,
her thoughts follow me
When I come home,
Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles,
and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
Daddy's little girl
ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy's little child
waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we're apart,
she's a part of me
Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
When I come home,
Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
When the days have gone grey,
Nothing's wrong when Molly smiles

I LOVE THIS SONG. its one of my favourite songs.
i like the lyrics. simple.
yet so much feelings.

BACK TO WHERE I WAS

2008-02-21T17:05:00.000-08:00

i need rest. drank and cried till i look totally unfit for my shoot today. have no clue how the fuck am i gonna go through this day. urgh. head hurts.my facial muscles are cramped. omg. if i still had one last breath. i'd say im sorry im sorry i've not learnt how to love again. i selfishly only wanted to be loved. but i know deep down. its not possible to only recieve and not return.

my hearts been cold
would you warm it baby

feelings

2008-02-20T08:09:00.000-08:00

im STILL sick. i think i took close to an entire strip of panadols at a go. omg. i realised something is wrong with my blog post time stamp thingy. oh wells. anyway. its 12am now. i have so much thoughts swimming around in my brain. annoyed.

words left unsaid
you walked away
creating the distance between us
i never moved
i stood still

your heart no longer beats for me
i dont dwell in your thoughts no more
everything has changed
everyone moved on
i stood still

that was soooooo random. hum. i stillll think im going to go into depressssion REAL soon. seriously. i mean. what is this. i dont even know what the fuck am i typing today. haha.

this is fucking random.

2008-02-19T09:09:00.000-08:00

im so random. naimah's birthdya last year. miss you guys. *SMILES.

DONT YOU JUST LOVE ME HUH NAIMAH. HAHAHAHA.

IMPOSTER. COPIED.

2008-02-19T08:37:00.001-08:00

OMG. i felt sick today. so i didnt attend class. it was crazy. my head was spinning in multiple directions. yup. i couldnt see properly. everything looked spinny. LOL. anyway. i HAVE to blog on this. since i was not able to help miss divine get the annoying thing who copies her math test and claims otherwise.

NOTE TO ANGEL

first of all. you dont have to ring up everyone just to tell them i wrote about you on my blog. THEY ALREADY KNOW. i thik. and it doesnt cause the entry to vanish just because you went around telling people i hated you. THEY ALREADY KNOW. (now thats for sure)

i got over your kiddish, boy crazy behaviour after a little while and started having short simple honest conversations with you since. so quit your little act of self-pity already. its so over.

BUT it does not mean i like you. im just not wasting my 'hate/dislike' space for you.

PLEASE QUIT COPYING miss divine's maths test answers if you're SO FUCKING SMART. go on and show everyone how fucking smart you are on your own. if you copied your answers and scored FULL MARKS. it still does not in any way, make you smart. really. you seriously need help coming to terms with the fact that you just cant make the cut for an 'IT GIRL'.

i know god's always fair. you either have brains and no beauty or the other way round. BUT. in your case. even god decided to give someone else the brains. prolly because he know you were gonna be THIS annoying. you neither have beauty nor brains. you have no qualities that'll get you anywhere near popular. so quit trying to reach for the stars when you cant even go near the ceiling.

i still dont dislike you. i just think nothing of you.

simply complicated

2008-02-17T19:56:00.000-08:00

love is so simple, its complicated. you seem to know so much about it, yet understand nothing. it may bring smiles, but mostly tears. when would it be safe to love with your heart? once you allow someone to unlock your heart, with the keys in their hands, you risk having your heart locked and stolen. you may never get it back.

you'd aften love someone who has given their heart to somebody else.
you'd often be the one trying to piece them back together again.
yet no matter how hard you try. you never seem to be comparable to the one who broke their hearts.

i've heard a friend telling me this once.

LOVE IS LIKE WAR
EASY TO START, HARD TO STOP

isnt that just so true.

if i could choose who i wanted i love. maybe i wouldnt have chosen you. i trusted you with my heart. you seem to have delibrately smashed it on the floor. a millions shattered pieces i've had to slowly piece it back together. yet before i could finish fixing the shattered heart, you'd trip over it and break it into even TEEEENNNNIER bits.

thanks alot. a whole fucking lot.

i really loved once. but now i no longer would.

you pushed me up just so i'd fall once you let go
i've fallen. i hope you're happy.

i wont regret you though. you were part of me. will always be. a memory i cannot seem to erase.
its like the delete button in my brain went missing.

was loving me that hard. or was it me who couldnt stop loving you too much.
it'll all end soon.

if i am lost for a day try to find me
but if i dont come back than i wont look behind me
all of the things that i thought were so easy
just gets harder and harder each day

december's the darkest
june is the light
and this emprty bedroom wont make anything right
and out on the landing
a friend i forgot to send home
who waits up for me all through the night

calender girl
who's in love with the world
stay alive

i dreamt i was dying
like i so often do
but when i awoke
i was sure it was true
i ran to window
threw my head to the sky
and said whoever is up there
please dont let me die

well i cant live forever
i cant always breathe
one day i'll be sand on a beach
by the sea
the pages keep turning
i'll mark off each page with a cross
and i'll laugh about all that we've lost

NAILS

2008-02-17T10:39:00.001-08:00

CHIO? lol. i love them.

just loook at them shine.

THE DATING GAME

2008-02-15T18:23:00.000-08:00

This entry is suitable for those who INTENDS or PLANS to cheat on their partner. To put it in a nicer way, you aspire to break the hearts of those who love you. *GRIN

First. you have to ask yourself a few questions.

1) if asked to rate your looks on the scale of 1 to 10. how much would you give yourself?

2) do you lie to yourself?

3) are you considered 'HOT' by most of your friends? (im looking at 8 out of 10)

4) are you able to handle the emotional stress before and after?

NOW LETS BEGIN..

As a cheater. you should NEVER have an online public account. (e.g friendster, facebook, myspace..) these are things that break you. you cant possibly post both your girlfriend's picures with you guys smoooching and expect them to be allll cool about it. its best to stick to the old msn thing. its ALWAYS safer. and keep on changing your password if you know your girlfriend/boyfriend is the snoooopish sort. hurhur. always have a password to your laptops. you dont want them finding those 'im-in-a-meeting' pictures with your arms tightly glued around another person's waist. (especially those pictures that has the other girl half naked on top of you) NOT GOOD. *heh.

Give them nicknames. This is important. because you never know when you might blurt out the wrong name in the midst of having wild wild sex. OR when you get drunk. at the very least you'd be mentioning their 'common' names. so no one would suspect a thing.

2008-02-15T06:40:00.000-08:00

my heart is cold
and im afraid that'll hurt you so
dont you know
dont you know

valentine's day just another day
heard you had another girl, so i looked away
im convinced that i was better off alone
holding hands walking down the streets was not what i would do anyway

but when i got home
curled up on my bed
trying to hold back tears
i didnt want to lose myself this way

im afraid to open my heart
cause its shattered apart before
it took me such a long time to piece it back
i allowed myself to love once before
and i ended up crying at the door
i didnt want give myself a chance again
to get hurt, im afraid
oooohhhhhhh
my hearts been cold
and im afraid that'll hurt you so
dont you know
dont you know

valentine's this year was just the same
i loved and took the blame
you left without a word, you had nothing to say
there was nothing left to say

'HEROES' BEHIND THE SCREENS' part2

2008-02-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

Firstly. I want to say how amused i am by my tagboard. HAHA!! it amazes me how some people can actually not activate their braincells while insulting someone. or rather, TRYING (very very very) fucking hard to. To be honest. Pity is the only thing i have for you nameless pathetic gutless creatures. Like i mentioned in my previous post, you must lead an extremely sad and boring life. i doubt you have a life at all. HAHA. to waste your time poking incessently at my self-healing bubble sure as hell dont make you any better than you're already NOT. so be a smart creature for once and cease this childish act of yours. (:

I do have a few questions for you though if you actually have the ability to comprehend what my questions mean that is. Looking at how incredibly HORRID you are at this language, i would try to simplify my questions fit for a kindergarden kid. Promise. *GRIN

[1] Are your parents literate? at all?

reason behind this question : if they are, why do you NOT have a name? ): poor you!! why dont i be a nice nice prissy princess for once and give you a name? *GRIN

lets name you.. *thinks reallllly hard* BRAINLESS NAMELESS CREATURE

like it? like it? LOOK!! im being nice to a random nameless creature. HAHA.

if they arent one. i feel sad for you. but the above given name by me still STANDS. duh.

i have so many things to blog and ask. but im tired. so. its off for a nap than when i get up all rested and happy, i'll continue this post. (:

OLD NOTE

2008-02-13T13:19:00.000-08:00

like sugar in my coffee
honey in my tea
your sweentness overwhelmes me
i could drown in it

i could stop your heartbeat
with a single a glance
you'd give up all you have
you'd take my hand and run

i stopped midway and waved goodbye
i saw the pain, and tears in your eyes
im sorry that i hurt you
i didnt mean to tear your heart apart
if i had stayed on for one more second
i'd be lying to my heart

you were there when i needed someone
caught me when i fell
tickle me when i got teary
carried me through tiresome journeys

thank you for doing so much
loving me like no one had
i'll never forget your warm embrace
you touched my heart everytime you smiled

2008-02-13T11:05:00.000-08:00

The Recipe For CALISTA FAYE

3 parts Love
2 parts Shrewdness
1 part Glamour

Splash of Wisdom

Serve over ice

What's the Recipe for Your Personality?

You Are Very Sexy

Damn! You are one hot number. You have a lot of sex appeal.
You know you're sexy, and you're not afraid to put it all out there.

And while you're very appealing, you're careful not to be trashy or over the top.
Sexy is all about attitude. And you totally have the attitude that people love.

How You Are Sexy

You accept your body as it is, and that's sexy. If you feel attractive, you are more attractive - no matter what your shape is.

You are flirtatious and fun with most people. You know how to keep things light, friendly, and sexy.

You are open to all sorts of experiences, and you have a taste for the exotic. Your adventurous spirit is very sexy.

Your modern look is sexy. You don't give people too much of the same old thing. You like to change it up.

Are You Sexy?

People Definitely Like You

You are very well liked, and many people admire you.
You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around.
Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay.
Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are!

What People Don't Like About You:

People don't like that you forget them easily. No one wants to be friends with someone who doesn't remember their name!

What People Like About You:

People like that you are genuine and real. They can count on you to be yourself.

People like that you take responsibility for your actions and admit your mistakes. They appreciate your maturity.

People like that you give them support and strength. Friends know that they can count on you to be there for them.

Do People Like You?

QUIZ

2008-02-13T10:56:00.000-08:00

You Are Totally Prissy

People should call you princess - that is, if they don't already.
You like everything "just so" ...and you don't mind complaining if you're not getting what you want.
You're freaked out by anything gross, dirty, or low class. You definitely need to be protected from the world.
And while people usually don't mind protecting you, you're prissy antics can get a bit annoying.

How Prissy Are You?

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers
And no wonder: you live life to the fullest!
When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place
But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

OLD SCHOOL.

2008-02-12T08:57:00.001-08:00

I decided that my old school uniform was too hot to resist. Thus, i ended up wearing it to class today. AND. I CAN STILL FIT IN. (: *grins

I'll let the pictures do the talking. (: loves.

'HEROES' BEHIND THE SCREENS

2008-02-12T01:30:00.000-08:00

I've blogged about this before. And here i am. Blogging about it ALL OVER AGAIN. omg. some people just dont seem to get it. oh wells.

Firstly. This is my blog. (which means, i get to blog whatever i want and no one can say shit) Now, flamming my tagboard with broken english and hokkien vulgarities, using different nicknames, definately does not make your life any better. unless of course you belong to the group of people whom i define as ' RIDUCULOUSLY BORED WITH LIFE CAUSE THEY DONT SEEM TO HAVE ONE '. if which in this case, you have my pity. *pats on the back

I may not be drop dead gorgeous like OMG OMG. but at least for sure i know, im not as cowardly and low as you are. *GRIN. thank god. I blog. yes. I realise its behind the computer screen. BUT. HELLO. i didnt force you to read my entry did i? I didnt say i was so fucking drop dead gorgeous either.. (though i must admit sometimes, i think i am.. HAHA) I blog but those reading this blog OBVIOUSLY knows im writing the entries. duh. did it ever actually occur to you to activate your brain cells before trying to insult someone? commenting on my entries, thats fine. You wanna threaten to kill me on my taggie, uhhh..i mean. sure. you can try. BUT insulting my mum. How about i write an entry dedicated to your parents? im sure i can do that i perfect complete sentences. (:

EXAMPLE :

I think you must have had a reaaalllly sad sad family at home with your mum lying in bed with cancer at its final stage. and aids infested body due to fucking around way TOOOO much with random doggies. (oh my. those poor doggies) Maybe you have aids too. *wonders HAHA!! cause after your mum forced the doggies to fuck her, you followed her foot steps. PLUS a father who has only 1/10th of a normal brain. ): *sniffs. i do feel your agony because i have such a perfect life. sometimes i really wished i could share abit of perfection with you. yet. thats close to impossible because. you're just nothing and i cant share things with nothingness. ): hum. oh wells. my eyes are starting to hurt n0w. gonna turn in. will blog more on this later. hurhur. in the mean time. enjoy flamming. (: life's short you know? and your's is even shorter. your mum? PROLLY 10 days left.

2008-02-07T05:29:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY people!! (: I cant help but notice that festivals are pretty much very quiet now. I remember like being REALLLLY excited when CNY was around the corner and would ensure i was dressed up in my NEW YEAR outfits going around extorting red packets from anyone that has a wedding band on their finger. (yeah. i WAS a little girl back than.) I can hardly feel excited for CNY for the past 3 years. I'd be dragging myself around and prolly accepts those who shoves a red packet into my hand, which i figured, was because they wanted those oranges in my hands VERY VERY VERY badly. yup. that MUST be it. HAHA!! I think festivals are pretty much just like any other normal day except you'd have to include more noise from your neighbour's house and prolly having difficulty finding a decent place to eat. SERIOUSLY. look at it this way..

ME (who has zero cooking skills) + PUBLIC HOLIDAY (which means the people dont go to work, which basically means food stall is closed) = ANGRY HUNGRY ME.

there!! was that simple enough to understand?. *sigh

The only thing i actually like about CNY is that i get to 'gamble' as much as i want without feeling guilty. heh. like. I think obsessive gambling is BAD. but CNY is a fucking great excuse. HAHA!!

While typing this entry. 'bleeding love' is kinda plaing over and over again on my laptop. AND im bored to tears, so, i thought of writing my own song. AND AND AND!! im going to title it, 'bleeding hate' (: *GRIN i know. im such a genius isnt that so? (just agree.)

shall go try churn out some random lyrics for that self-pen (still in process) song. hurhur. how moronic can i get. HUM.

2008-02-04T13:07:00.001-08:00

met up with miss gonggong at HMV today.
we ate sakae sushi. and and and. NAOMI gave me the funniest idea ever. HIDE THE LEFT OVER FOOD WE HAD. just for the fun of it. like. OMG!! hahahaha. but it was fun lah. after which we walked around hmv and took neoprints. and talked. and shared with each other some very very personal stuff. (: glad we did cause we found out that we actually had certain similar past events in our lives. anyway. we shopped around at NUM (new urban male) and i bought this fucking cute tee!! it says.. STUPID FACTORY, where boys are made.
LOL.
waited for mr.starstud to end work cause wanted him to accompany me while i had to wait for naomi to come back. poor girl coughing like her throat was gonna burst. ): yupppp. thats about my day. oh oh OH!! plus i spotted a pretty cute guy at NUM hmv. all you girls should really head over there to shop (look at some eyecandies) *ahem. HAHA!!
current favourite song? loneliness by babyface. *sigh.
maybe thats how i really feel even after all these while

PICTURES.

2008-02-01T07:00:00.000-08:00

this is the way i look when i go for classes.

random random

*GRIN

oh. since we went to JB. Naomi brought me to Holiday Plaza to do our nails. OMFG!! There was this reallllllly lousy shop there. Dont ever do your nails with them. They cant even do a basic manicure without screwing up your nails. VERY gross. im disgusted. both of us got cheated by the stupid shop and i went back to make them explain why is the job done so badly.

the shop's name is NAIL STUDIO. i will post up their exact location and shop number soon. better not go there and ruin your nails. SIGH. anyway. the ladyboss of that shop is worse than fungi. She's prolly the bacteria thats on my shit. *GRIN

grossssss!!

(will blog about the whole thing soon)

ANYWAY.

the great great thing is that at least, we found a shop that is 1000000000000millionic times better after the huge hoo-haa at that lousy nail place. They are definately nicer, friendlier and ovbiously more professional. And they worked magic on my screwed up nails!! from the ugliest set of nails i've ever had done in my entire life, they turned it into a beautiful set that i simply adore. i cant describe how fucking happy i was with the second nail shop. If im not wrong, their called NAIL ADDICTION. also located at holiday plaza. same level too. very near to the lousy shop. hahahhaha. omfg.

MY VERY VERY PRETTY NAILS. (:

done by the second shop. and they didnt even charge much.

mine is the first three photos.

the other two. are actually the nails of one of the lady boss over there.

damn chio isnt it?

she did it herself!!

acrylic nails plus 3d art.

go to them to get pretty nails. (:

TATTOO by Jordin Sparks

2008-02-01T02:44:00.000-08:00

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..

No matter what you say about love,

I keep coming back for more,

My head in the fire,

Sooner or later I get what i'm asking for

No matter what you say about life,

I learn every time I bleed.

The truth is a stranger

My soul is in danger,

I gotta let my spirit be free to,

Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.

Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give me the moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything

I've done

Lived every second like it was my last one.

Don't look back got a new direction

Loved you once, needed protection.

You're still a part of everything I do,

you're on my heart just like a tattoo,

Just like a tatto,

I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games

It's not about taking ties.

When I look in the mirror,

Didn't deliver

It hurt enough to think that I could stop

Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.

Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything

I've done

Lived every second like it was my last one.

Don't look back got a new direction

Loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do,

you're on my heart just like a tattoo,

I'll always have you.

If I live every moment

Won't change any moment

Still a part of me and you.

I will never regret you

Still the memory of you

Marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give me the moment

I realize nothing's broken

No need to worry about everything

I've done

Lived every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

Loved you once, needed protection.

You're still a part of everything I do,

you're on my heart just like a tattoo.

Just like a tattooI'll always have you.

STARS AND PIERCINGS

2008-01-26T11:40:00.000-08:00

How many of you people out there agree that your classmates are plain weird. right. maybe not ALL of them. just the minor few. (i can see some of you secretly smiling at the computer screen now..) *GRIN

i DEFINATELY think that i have some really weird classmates. they are so weird. sometimes i actually thought i was in a metal institute. hurhur

im sure ALLLLLL you humans who are studying noticed this. when you check yourself into a school. its like you just left homeland for some foreign country. everything. and i mean EVERYTHING just seems so scary. and unfamiliar. to make things worse. its so human nature.. everyone starts grouping themselves up. and there you'll find yourself stranded under the stairs eating lunch. *pats you on the back

okay. im gonna make a list of the common groups we have..but im gonna scale it down to classroom size..

(1) the belle of the class usually accompanied by her two or three other pretty hot hot girlfriends
(2) Mr.eyecandy and all the other guys who dont look too good but wants in on the glory
(3) the fat people. (not much explanation needed here)
(4) the nerdy 'i-do-ALL-my-assignments' aliens
(5) loners

*you have to also take note of the langauge preferences. those can be divided within the groups.

BELLE AND HER GOSSIP BABES

she's pretty. hot. she has brains. (please take note : some belles are BIMBOS) she's everything you wished you could be. all the females in class wants to be her friend and secretly wished she'd get banged by a bus and die. everytime she walks into class. silence. all eyes on her. yup. thats her alright. your belle.

MR.EYECANDY AND HIS LOYAL FOLLOWERS

he might not be tall and dark. but i can safely assure you that handsome is definately present for this one. he's got the attitude. and not to forget a whole class of ardent fans. agreeing and nooding their heads to every remark he makes. does it really matter if the answer he wrote on the board was correct? hum. thats a cute butttt!! *GRIN obviously you can safely say that guys around him calls him their closest kin to get a girl's attention.

THE FAT PEOPLE

these people basically just goes on diets that never worked and never will work. they take up ALOT of space in the class and sometimes you'd turn to them for some entertainment when class gets so boring you cant even bring yourself to fall asleep.

THE NERDS

they are your teacher's pet. and they shun the belles and eyecandies together with the entourage. yup. i present to you. the nerdy nerds. they are aliens. not humans. ALIENS!!

LONER

i-live-and-die-alone. i-am-gonna-close-my eyes-and-walk-into-the-wall-now. *struggles to look up.

*Wala!! i mean. of couse. the break down is definately not so simple. you still have your ah lians and ah bengs. plus your class clown. and not to forget the joker who keeps things alive. and the OUTCAST. yup. its like a whole reality programme isnt it? they totally should consider doing one on this. ITS REAL FOR ONE. you dont even have to script it.

*difference between your class clown and joker. JOKERS are often well liked because they brighten everyone's day and only joke at the right times. everyone laughs at their jokes. (including the loners and nerdy people). CLOWNS are just idiots. (: no witty coments and mostly laughing at their own joke. these are the people you'd want to stick your pen knif through their hearts in boring BIOLOGY class. (could have been accidental.)

In my class. There happens to be two mr.eyecandy and it seems to me like ALL the females in class are their ardent fans. (excluding ms.divine and myself).

EYE CANDY #1 - STARRY STARRY

i mean come on. this guy has an ardent female fan who actually spent time counting the number of stars he has on his body. (im so tempted to buy star stickers and paste it all over him and watch her count them). hahaha.

EYE CANDY #2 - COMMON NAME YOU SAY?

every sentence is punctuated with his name. you hear it more often than you write the date on your assignment papers on the entire day. yup. same ardent fan he has. hahhaahah. lovely.

miss ardent fan has no personality. yup. zero.nil. zilch. she immitates a bit of everyone and TADA!!!! HELLLLO NEW ME. hurhur. weirdo.

alright. off for my fooood. lights out people. (:

ANGEL or DEVIL

2008-01-23T07:30:00.000-08:00

Its often said that looks are decieving. Well. I realised NAMES are decieving too. hurhur.

I have this girl in some of my classes and her name is Angel. i've ALWAYS associated that word with things like..godly, white, pretty wings. halos and in general, perfection. HELL AM I WRONG. (though im pretty sure its prolly just a mistake) haha! i mean. i sure as hell think her name should be something like..

- little miss boy-crazy
- little miss name crazy
- miss hypocrite
- miss fashion disaster

NOW ANY OF THE ABOVE WOULD HAVE FIT HER PERFECTLY great!! *sigh

oh wells. im always learning new things. *grin anyway. and because of her very spastic like behaviour, she naturally appears on my 'go away from me' list. (: (seriously. get a life)

its weird like how she behaves like she's never seen a male in her entire life and is practically drooling over them. HELLLLLO!! if you are attracted to them which is totally normal. just fucking go talk to them. isnt that soooooo much easier than ohhhhhhhhhhing and ahhhhhhhhhhing about it? kids. god save me please. oh wells. doesnt affect me. but when it does. im becoming satan!! *smiles sweetly.

like i always agreed. birds of a feather flock together. so angel flocks together with this oher taiwanese girl. obviously nothing to look at. haha. okay. now im being mean. but hey. IM ALWAYS BITCHY. love me or hate me. (:

*sing song voice

love me or hate me
its still an obsession
love me or hate me
that is a question
if you love me than
THANK YOU
if you hate me than
F U C K YOU!! (:

loves.

oh oh btw. did i mention that i dont care if whoever i talk or bitch about knows that i do that? *grin. thats the whole damn point. if you got the guts to dislike and hate a person, dont even try to be nice infront of me. I HATE HYPOCRITES.

AND before i forget. I DISLIKE BOTH OF THE ABOVE NAMES MENTIONED. (:

if you little kids think playing childish games with regards to friendships are your kind of thing. please dont step on my tail. cause i bite. SERIOUSLY. i do. (:

I LOVE miss 'divine' (:

FACE FACTS

2008-01-14T22:03:00.000-08:00

ALL females are vain.

note: if you belong to the above gender. please. nod your heads in agreement. if in any case you're shaking your head. go seek help quick. either from a mental institution or a plastic surgeon.

in my eyes. as long as you have a hole and have a thing for males. you are considered a female. unless otherwise you may want to check with your doctor.

i had this one velentine day gathering with some friends way back. and this really ridiculous ah lian who has limited vocabulary left me with something i'd never forget for as long as im breathing oxygen.

i've only met her once before the gathering and that was a casual outing with a few friends. ah lian was than introduced to me..

smalleyes: eerrrrrrrrrrrr... this is my god-sister. (turns around and introduced me to her)

me: oh! HI!! (smiles and checked her out at the same time)

*1kg of foundation = checked
many layers of bright-coloured tops = checked
alot ALOT of eyeliner = checked
typical ah lian style = double double check

*SMILES. there. i've done my checking out in record timing.

Ahlian: ehh!! your bag very nice hor? where you buy ah?

me: *blinks (i looked stupid) hum. i cant remember. yup.

Ahlian: orh...my fren gort tis bag oso leh!! hahahahahaaa...

me: *mind laughing, face still as blurr.

ahlian walks away........

so all this while. we were out together but i spoke less than five sentences. and ah lian has done makeup touch ups for the 15th time. YES!! 15. in 1 hour. not that im complaining about it. but come on. thats tooooooooooooo much touch ups. god.

okay anyway. so after the movie. we split and i went home. and i had a phone conversation with my guy friend who happens to be her god-brother.

me: smalleyes!! thats fifteen times can.

smalleyes: you damn vain lah you!! haha!!

me: i admit that. *grin. i think all females are vain and have a right to be vain. come on. you guys dont get atracted by ugly girls!! haha.

smalleyes: true......

me: but your god sister is seriously and definately more vain than i am.

conversation ends.

than comes valentines day.

my best friend and i went together. love him. (:

ahlian suddenly comes to confront me.

ahlian: eeehhhhhhhhhh you come here

me: uhh...why?

bestfriend: i think you are very rude. im eating and she has name. her name is not "EH". and i have to move in order for her to come out.

ahlian: (angry) FINE!!!! can you please let her out?

bestfriend: i have a name too you know... its CW.

ahlian: *repeats the above with name inserted at front.

me: its okay. just let me out. * gets up and went out of the hole.

ahlian: YOU SAY MY BAD THING ISIT?!!!!!

me: what? uhhhhhhhh? what do you mean?

ahlian: YOU SAY I VERY UGLY ISIT?

me: nope. i didnt say that you're ugly. i said you're very vain. thats all.

ahlian: WHY MUST YOU SAY MY BAD THING!!!!!

me: hum. is that bad?

ahlian: YOU TINK YOU VERY CHIO AHHHHH?

me: *grin uhhhh. no. yes. maybe.

ahlian: YOU THINK VERY FUNNY HUH? I TELL YOU!! I SEE YOU ONE TIME WHACK ONE TIME.

now. dont hold back that laughter. dont. just let it go. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. wth!! that ah lian was obviously not making any sense. omg. anyway.

if you're wondering do i still go to town. i STAY in town. so. yup. and i bumped into her a million times. she sure whacked hard with her very enthusiastic HIs.

hurhur. how ironic. humans.

HILARIOUS WAITRESS

2008-01-08T02:08:00.000-08:00

Okay. As i've promised. This post is dedicated to that waitress i rubbed shoulders with on my VERY glamourous new year's eve celebration. Here goes nothing..

Lets name her "SWDM (she who disgusts me)". okay. location? A Cheena close to lup-sup pub called O2. NOW.. close your eyes and imagine a place jammed packed with ching chiong rowd and horrid singers. hum. not too enticing was it? well. why on god's forsakened world was I doing there.. *shrugs

I was there because mr.right decided to head down there for a short round of drinks with some of his more cheena ah beng friends. most of which i dont think much of. right. so there i was sitting quietly. or rather, i was standing quietly. while he was downing glasses of god knows what. i was VERY distracted by the singing. it was almost like a was in the middle of a chicken farm and the slaughtering was going on. WHAT WAS THAT SINGING?! oh god. okay. back to the table. i realised. ITS EMPTY. yay.

obviously the there was a free drink offer going on the bar counter. or so i figured. OR it could also mean that a merlion showcase was going on somewhere at the side of the sleazy pub. NO NO NO. IT WAS A............. FIGHT.

one of mr.right's friend walks past me holding his head like it was going to stop the blood from dripping onto his face. totally not helping was the fact that his younger brother appeared behind with a scratched forearm and grazed elbow. i was immediately snapped into 'lets get out of here please' mode. i flagged a cab down just to be stared at by various people like i was supposed to do something about this whole situation. right. i was dressed so skimpy i thought i was going to the beach or something. out of point. i know. okay. i was in a pair of four inch heels and my feet was hurting.

THIS IS THE MAIN PART. (where that SWDM comes into the picture) A random mad girl shoved a pair of slippers in my face. I was so shocked to a point i lost my voice. i think my throat decided to take a short holiday somewhere. i was polite enough to just give that mad girl a VERY confused look and walk away. only to hear her say to me... " ZHUANG GAO GUI". now. which part of me rejecting a pair of slippers from a random crazy girl looked like i was trying to act classy. i fumed. i marched in. demanded an explanation of the insult. and she started hurling all sorts of hokkien obscenities at me. almost gave me a slap if the other waitress didnt hold her back. WHAT IS THIS WOLRD TURNING INTO?! what is this.

she is totally mad i tell you. really. anyway. her real name is ke xing if im not wrong. to which i translate to "CURSING". what a stupid name. i know know. i must be sooooooooooo blooody mean. but hey. im not gonna be bothered to be nice to some wild little dog on the loose. someone please call for the SPCA reporting for the runaway mut. (: damn that dog.

THE BORING COUNTDOWN

2008-01-03T15:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2008!! *grin

A year went by without me doing anything thats productive. apart from the fact that i went on a 'lets all kill my liver' rampage. does that even make any sense?

Right. I have decided to blog about my very exciting new year's celebration. Lets see..

31st of december 2007 (8pm-11.30pm):

1) working.
2) boring work.
3) many trips to the ladies.
4) secretly wished i brought ear plugs (the REALLLY good ones) along. Those singgapore idol rejects must have decided to spend their new year's eve counting down in BEDS. omg.

31st of december 2007 (11.30pm-11.45pm) :

1) reading msges that mostly read "happy new year blah blah blah blah great year blah. love and blah and blah"
2) cursing mobile phone for jamming yet AGAIN. yay! !@#$%^&%@#
3) reject boss's request for selling those dirty spray things that makes you look like a disgusting undernourished fake snowman. (picture that in your mind. and we all say? EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! gross.

31st of december 2007 (11.45pm-12.00am) :

1) decides to hide at the back alley till count down is officially over.
2) decided against it and walked across the road to 'EN LOUNGE' to say hi to an old friend. Luckishim. (:
3) watch random people attack each other with that yucky spray thing like there was a prize to win if you sprayed the most humans. (how retarded)
4) stared fiercely at anyone who came within arms-length from where i was sitted if they had a spray can in their hands. (which in my opinion, worked like a charm *sweeeet)

1st January 2008 (12.01am-12.15am) :

1) countdown officially over.
2) drank a glass of whiskey soda.
3) sneaked out of work place in case boss tries to coax me into not leaving cause they were short-handed. hum.
4) laughed at those other random people who were covered in yucky spray things. HAHAHA!!

This marks the official start of 2008 for me.
in my next entry. i'll tell you about a craaaazy pub waitress.
hurhur.

THE BESTFRIEND ENTRY

2008-01-03T09:13:00.000-08:00

HUMAN A: you look as if you missed the BIG ninewest sale due to an overdose of whiskey on the previous night...

HUMAN B: [insert an ugly half smile] my bestfriend and i quarrelled.

HUMAN A: oh i see... what happened?

HUMAN B: she told someone who told me that she told her that im ugly.

HUMAN A: [mind wandered to that hunk that walked by] sorry... i didnt catch what you were saying. try not to feel so gloomy. how long have you guys been bestfriends?

HUMAN B: [start counting with fingers...] one, two, three, four... about four months.

HUMAN A: four months? i think that would officially make me your twin since i've known you for a year. [walks away]

That was a conversation i had with a girlfriend of mine once. Its not that i think human relationships should be based on the, how long you've known each other thing. Its fine if you meet this person and realised you guys hit it off well and you think he/she makes a great friend. BUT that definately does not qualify you to think that this new friend you just made has magically and almost instantly, become your bestfriend. Seriously. How well do you know this person? Dont even tell me things that i already know about that person because its written all over their facebook and friendster's "about me" section. I will look at you, laugh, and tell you what an idiot you are.

Go ahead and think that im mean and inhuman. But hey, when you start telling me that john, tom, harry, mary, jane and jelly are your bestfriends... I take it that you,

1) make friends in a minute (which isnt anything bad)

2) become best of friends within the next one hour or so

3) doesnt care if you know that person well enough (name and number. pretty much bestfriends already)

4) officially needs serious counselling (how to differenciate friends from strangers)

5) have a mentality of a lower primary kid

Oh! BTW, my bestfriend is Ronald Macdonalds. Knew him since i was a little kid. hum.

CALISTA FAYE

FRIENDSHIP

di yi ci zui hou

張惠妹 趁早

LUCKY

made me a fool

THE VERONICAS

just dont say anything

ITS 2009

IN SEARCH OF SANITY

MESSED UP

heartbeats

simple quote

random

你是我的幸福吗?

WHAT A NIGHT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY(15thaug)

ONE DAY I'LL FLY AWAY

missing picture

THE LOGIC OF LOVE

NATIONAL DAY.

BRAND NEW

WARNING

THE BESTFRIEND ENTRY

THAT WAS ALL HIS LOVE

my love will get you home

NIGHT OUT AFTER WORK 2

NIGHT OUT AFTER WORK

makes me smile

gone with the pain

FUNNY CONVERSATION

im all pink.

SICK

UNKNOWN LOSER

me to you.

PHOTO TIME.

URGE TO KISS

THOUGHTS

PICTURES THAT PAINT A THOUSAND WORDS

RANDOMOUS

LETS PLAY A GAME?

two cents worth

FEMALES

TRUE OR FALSE, COME and GOES

lovers to friends

PS. I LOVE YOU

FOREVER by Leon Jay Williams.

randomrandomus

MDIS

A NEED TO PUKE

THE GROSS AND THE UGLY

MOLLY SMILES

BACK TO WHERE I WAS

feelings

this is fucking random.

IMPOSTER. COPIED.

simply complicated

NAILS

THE DATING GAME

'HEROES' BEHIND THE SCREENS' part2

OLD NOTE

QUIZ

OLD SCHOOL.

'HEROES' BEHIND THE SCREENS

PICTURES.

TATTOO by Jordin Sparks

STARS AND PIERCINGS

ANGEL or DEVIL

FACE FACTS

HILARIOUS WAITRESS

THE BORING COUNTDOWN

THE BESTFRIEND ENTRY

張惠妹趁早